Not For a Moment

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105.

This has been the truth of my life lately.

A few days ago, I was overcome with worry (and when I say "overcome," I mean completely overwhelmed, shaking in fear - worried). So what did I do? Googled "verses on worry," of course! These verses gave me immediate comfort. "Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." How about that for a lift in your spirit?!

But why has this just been true in my life lately?

That's what I've come to despise in myself. It takes circumstances that are out of my control, completely, for me to walk with God's word as a lamp to my every step. I don't want to have to go through the valley to need the lamp! God, I promise I still need You when things are going great.

But obviously, He knows better. God knows my heart and how much I desired to be a mother. He gave me my heart's desire and now He is guaranteeing that I walk close to Him in this journey.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10.

Yesterday's heart appointment for Micah was much more encouraging! We were able to talk to another doctor about his echo (ultrasound of his heart). This doctor seems to think that Micah's hole has a great chance of closing on it's own - or at least, getting smaller. And he said Micah could live with a small VSD (hole) and be fine! This was drastically different than what the doctor last week said. Of course, he also said that his hole is a moderate size and will take months for us to start seeing some change and within that time he could start having symptoms of heart failure - in which case we would need to take the step forward in getting it fixed surgically.

Just knowing there is now a "chance" it can close on it's own, is an improvement from last week! I have faith that God can heal Micah's hole completely.

A sweet friend has been sending me Scripture verses for the past couple days. She also sent me this new song by Meredith Andrews called "Not For a Moment," that just speaks such truth to my heart. I wanted to share it with you all - so I took a break in the middle of writing this blog post to pull out my guitar and learn it. Check out a little cameo of Micah in the background too! He made it into his first youtube video (outside the womb). ;)

 p.s. I don't know why the audio & video are not in sync... but I didn't really want to redo it. Or maybe Micah woke up. My apologies. :)

Not For a Moment

You were reaching through the storm, walking on the water, Even when I could not see. In the middle of it all, when I thought you were a thousand miles away. Not for a moment, did You forsake me. Not for a moment, did You forsake me.

After all, You are constant. After all, You are only good. After all, You are sovereign. Not for a moment, will You forsake me.

You were singing in the dark, whispering Your promise. Even when I could not hear. I was held in Your arms, carried for a thousand miles to show, Not for a moment did You forsake me.

After all, You are constant. After all, You are only good. After all, You are sovereign. Not for a moment, will You forsake me. Not for a moment, will You forsake me.

And every step, every breath You are there. Every tear, every cry, every breath. In my hurt, at my worst, when my world falls down. Not for a moment, will You forsake me.

Even in the dark, even when it's hard You will never leave me After all

After all, You are constant. After all, You are only good. After all, You are sovereign. Not for a moment, will You forsake me. Not for a moment, will You forsake me.